I'm in love with him again, and again, and again.

just a smile... :)
and you make me in love with you again.
just a few meaningless words, but I feel like I'm so lucky.
actually, loving you is so damn hard.
you never notice me, you're so busy -.-
you never ask me first, you've never start a conversation with me. I have to start it.
sometimes, I'm sick of it, totally sick of it!! you, and a bunch of girls around you.
you're so nice to them... some of them think you love 'em! >.<
remember when we met each other FACE-TO-FACE FOR THE FIRST TIME since you, officially live next door? 5th January 2010. after 2 years knowing you, that's the first time, I've never see your face like that before, I usually meet you accidentally on purpose in front of my house (or your house), hey! you live exactly next door. yeah, true, but... you moved a few week before we met 5th January. that's why it feels so... precious...
the first time I saw you, you're playing guitar in front of your house. I'm interested. then my mom told me how nice you are. then I sent a request to your Facebook page, well, to know you better.
my mom was right. you're nice... I like you. but, after 3 months that stupid feeling grow, nothing I can do.
the reason why I love you was fading. no reason, that's why I called it love. you're not so good looking, you're not so nice anymore, you're "cold", and a bunch of girls around you, make me wonder why I can keep loving you.
after we met the 5th January 2010, my teacher (that could know everyone's feelings) said that you have a feeling for me. I was so happy like I could do anything impossible, like... jumping to the moon?
but now... your feeling for me has gone. I became your little sister, I miss your smile, I love the way I can't breathe when you shake my hand, I love the way you text your smile. n_n n,n ;) :) I miss everything... I wish that feeling come to you again... just FYI, I'm still loving you. 'cause I know you shine brighter.
I climb, I slip, I fall... into your empity hands but I lay here all alone, sweating all your blood, if I could find out how to make you listen now because I'm starving for you here with my undying love...